Today is my dad’s birthday he would have been 78 – years old.
He passed away September 1, 2014 – 3 years ago from esophageal cancer right before he would have been 75.
I think the hardest part of my dad dying was that I replay our last conversations over and over in my head.
I have put the pieces together of EVERYTHING he was trying to tell me. My dad was trying to warn me what would happen when he was gone he was trying to prepare me for it. Nothing could ever prepare me for what has happened.
Happy Birthday, DAD, I love you and miss you.
I was outdoors bright and early Monday morning taking pictures with my Canon 400 mm lens. If I had been out there with any other lens these shots would not have been possible.
While I was shooting a fence post and barbed wire out of the corner of my eye I saw something run past me but about 3 acres over. I looked up and low and behold it was a deer a very large buck. Of course, my camera was not set to be shooting towards the sun but I just started shooting. I had no time to check settings change them or even review the pictures I was taking.
Then all of a sudden here came another buck this one was younger and his rack was not as big as the older one. I was able to take about 12 pictures before they left, of course, my favorites were when they were together.
We see deer here on occasion but normally it is a couple of doe or a doe and a fawn but never bucks and much less never two of them.
In fact, it has been several months since we have seen any deer at all. My husband and I recently talked about it and wondered where they were all hiding.
Over the last week, there have been so many signs right in front of me. There have been lots of butterflies in all colors some I have never seen before, Cardinals, and many bird feathers in a specific order certain colors each day.
All of these things I noticed and even spoke to my sister and my cousin about it. I felt like all these things were my dad trying to get my attention.
When the deer came along it was like a giant billboard flashing right in front of me.
I honestly feel like my dad was trying to tell me he is around and he is always watching over me. At the same time, I think he wanted me to know he sees everything that is going on.
The connections we feel to our deceased loved ones are there as long as we pay attention to the signs.